![]() ![]() I hadn't really experienced anything of the sort at the time, but as an adult, I've experienced my own share of loss. That's because Final Fantasy X is a story about grief. If anything, I found that it might just resonate even more now than it did back then. However, I did play through FFX again last year just to see if the adult version of myself would still find the game as compelling, and at least make an attempt to not just be blinded by the nostalgia from a couple of summers in middle school. Divorcing myself from such a formative experience, one that put me on the path of loving Final Fantasy and RPGs in general, is not something I’m sure I’d want to attempt if I even could. I’m honest enough with myself to accept that I’ll never be able to truly look at Final Fantasy X objectively, not completely. I would listen to Run!! by just setting the controller down and letting it play out over and over. I permanently affixed Final Fantasy X’s rendition of Ifrit into my brain so thoroughly that the series’ more demon-like interpretations of the summon still feel like imposters in my mind. The summoning animations were so beautiful that I couldn’t possibly consider ever skipping through them. I thought Auron was really cool, of course. I was perhaps a bit too easy to please as a wide-eyed pre-teen, but who isn’t at that age. Without any hyperbole, I think my life was changed from that moment on. On that disk was a playable demo of Final Fantasy X. I might have gone another decade or more to discover exactly what I was missing out on if it wasn’t for an auspicious demo disk inserted into a copy of Official Playstation Magazine - something I had subscribed to on a whim out of a school fundraiser, of all things. I had a vague idea of what Vivi looked like and I knew I’d seen the name ‘Sephiroth’ pop up in AIM chatrooms all over the place, but I hadn’t experienced anything firsthand from the series. As a middle schooler in the year 2001, I didn't quite know what exactly Final Fantasy was. ![]()
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